Welcome to Heartbreak.

I'm bumpin Kanye TOO HARD right now.

Anyways, me & him are done. I called it quits.

The Story:
When I met him it was like ^_^ all the time. I was happy with him. October - November we was together. I always had suspicions about his friend Ty but they both told me they are good friends and best friend friends so no worries. Me trusting him, I didn't worry about it until she wrote a blog saying she was IN LOVE with him. I was shocked and hurt. I got over it thought. She moved away to a different state so it was nothing to me.
Now a while ago Chris (my now ex) was at my house using the computer. He left his myspace on so I looked through it because I wanted to, I shouldn't have to be worried about anything anyways. I looked at some messages and didn't really read them so i just saved them for me to read later.
Later happened to be yesterday. Before I read them though, I asked him if he had anything to tell me and he said "Oh I think I told you but anyways me and *** almost had sex" I was like when, He said "like a week after my birthday" I'm like oh okay...I wasn't going out with him so I didn't even care that much. Then we started talking about smoking and how I feel about it...(btw SMOKING IS BAD GUYS!!! Please don't do it.)
Now I was fine until I decided to read these messages when I found out he didnt almost have sex with ***** a week after his bday in sept. He almost did in November (when we was together) I also found out he smoked. I also found out that he was tellin the same girl he almost had sex with that he loved her. I was upset because he had me thinking she was tryna talk to him and he was leading her on. You don't tell a girl that likes you that you love her and expect her to feel no way about it. I also seen the comment when she said "Awww ur my favorite!!" and he said "I won't believe it until i feel it"
Now all of this happening in one night is pretty overwhelming.

I didn't break up with him because of the stuff he did in the past.

I broke up with him because he lied to me then about him and his bestfriend just being friends and he lied to me last night.

If he told me the truth, I wouldve been hurt but he still would've had a girlfriend.

So to me, you lied then and you lied now, and your just not going to change.

Hello Blogger #2

SO! I've been working and at my boyfriends house for some days now, but as of right now I'm so MAD!!! Mom said we're moving to Arizona -_- What the hell is in Arizona? I like the city so why would you move me all the way across the country.

But besides that, for everyone who doesn't know....Micheal Jackson is dead =/ and there are rumors saying he was dead for like 20 years already and someone was jus acting like him. What kind of b.s. news is that. Well anyways, may be rest in peace. At least the New York State Senate will have a break from the front page news.

Next topic: Calling me stupid when your only 14. Def not a good idea.

This is me,

High School Graduate - 2nd yr in college

This is you,


I rest my case.

Hello Blogger #1

So, I have this new job at Marist College where we call and harass people and ask them questions. I get hung up on a lot but I usually don't get cursed at because I have a small voice so they would probably feel like crap it they yells at me. Anyways, I thought I would be working like every week and I'm NOT which sucks. SO I guess I will just have to ask them for more hours even though I HATE working at night but its whatever, money is money.

My old job, KFC, they suck at life....anybody in the Poughkeepsie area DO NOT WORK AT KFC....well the one on Main Street. My aunt is the manager and shes just a total BIOTCH! She fired me once for no reason and my mom going to file for unemployment and my aunt gave me my job back. Yay -_-. Anyways, after I got my job back I was working a good 35 hours a week training a new person they hired. After she was trained my aunt cut my hours to 15 and gave the new girl all my hours...smh like I said a total BIOTCH!!! Now I know when they cut your house like that, that means they are going to fire you soon. SO, I quit before they could fire me and got a new job the next day. ^_^ BASTARDS!!

Through all of this "KFC Drama" just made me Realize that:

NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOU.
THEY'RE TOO BUSY CARING ABOUT THEMSELVES.

Realized though Enlightening Thought #32

And now I throw you under the bus to go and care about my oh so wonderful self.








BTW - Happy Father's Day for all the REAL fathers.

Ugh @ myself

NY is killing me.
My skin is darker than usual.
I'm breaking out badly!!!
I gained weight....alot of weight.
My clothes don't fit anymore.
I can't see (no glasses).
I'm being a bitch to people.
My hair is breaking off.
My job isn't paying me cuz I haven't been working.
I can't go shopping.
I have no phone.
I feel hideous -_-
and....

I'm slackin in life =/

Best show of 2009 so far....

GLEE!!!! Oh em gee! You have to see.....these kids are effin AMAZING!....and I really hated High School Musical...smh....but this is jus pretty ohhhdeee =)

"Ur mom said WHAT?.........oh...."

So...another blog on random thoughts.....

by the way....the title...Just something i say a lot

SOOOO!!!!!

1 - I hate Poughkeepsie. It's just...THE WORSE. People killing people....kids with kids...you know the usual. That shit is not normal...like....I dont understand since when was it okay for a 15 year old to have a baby. YOU ARE NOT OLD ENOUGH TO HAVE A CHILD UNTIL YOU HAVE A CAREER!!!! NONE THE LESS....YOU CAN AFFORD ONE. Career doesn't mean a part time job or full time job at KFC. I mean college degree and you on ur shit. I understand mistakes happen but if you didn't prevent it from happening then it wasn't a mistake. UNDERSTAND?

2 - Not liking me. I understand that everybody isn't going to like me because I'm brutally honest. But then again I don't who likes me and who doesn't. I know who my friends are and I don't need anymore. The end.

3 - M.O.N? Just stop. PLEASE! Females who say M.O.N are either broke or can't find a man or both. Never in life would you hear me say that shyt. And when your like 20 and over, I'd be damned if I hear you say that shit. That means your just not going nowhere in life, just str8 Poughkeepsie for life....like a jail sentence....I'm sayin that cuz a girl said that to me....shes like 21...has a kid...you know how pk ppl do. I thought it was funny....cuz shes not gettin money wit no job and shes not pullin no men so how does she sound.....

4 - Fast ass little girls. Need to get there asses beat. I was walking to my cousins house the other day and this little girl jus thought she was jus too BAD....I was tight cuz she looked me up and down...ARE YOU SERIOUS?...like I'm not a grown ass woman and I'm not in college lmao...go read a book.

5 - Kid after kid. After you have your first child at 17 why start on a second one. No college education, but stay home and talk shit on myspace and be pregnant. 99.9% of people reading this KNOW who i'm talking about. Chill all day everyday just PREGNANT. lol and got the nerve to try and talk about someone else cuz we doin something with out lives.

6 - Bi, Lesbians, Gay individuals. I have no problem with them. Are they not human? I don't like discrimination and I don't appreciate people saying they don't like a certain kind of person. You don't like gay people you can kick rocks....BAREFOOT.

7 - My relationship. Stay out of it, it's me and him not you and him or me and you. Mind your business and don't get urself embarrassed.

8 - My grammar sucks when it comes to typing. That's because I don't CARE.

9 - I'm gaining weight, yes I know and it SUCKS major..... I need to go to the gym anybody care to join???

10 - I HATE WEAVE!!!! OMG!!!! I have box braids right, they are suppose to last months. I hate them and want them out....never again. BTW I don't like when people say that weave is their real hair. You sound like a dumbass.

Fin.

OMG!!!!