The difference between me and you.....

I've come across a lot of people who were cool with me and ended up fallin off the face of the Earth. Then we just have the people that don't like me at all =) I don't REALLY care, not everybody is gonna like me. I just wish everybody had that same mentality.
So, some random facts you might want to know....

-- I don't flaunt stuff I have, I see it like this, if u got it then u got it, if not then ya don't. In the end people aren't gonna remember you for the shit you have. I happen to go on Twitter on day and someone said "I can't wait til Christmas come, another reason to be more flyer than YOU" hmmm... I didn't know life was about material things and I didn't know Christmas was about recieving gifts I thought it was about the birth of Christ but you wouldn't know anything about that because you're too busy writing a book about yourself and reading it out loud so you don't forget your role as "let's pretend to be something you're not"

-- I'm a bitch some people say, I just keep it 100 all the time, I rather hurt someone else's feelings than having the title of a liar.

-- When it comes to guys, I don't sleep around, I'm 19 and only been with two guys, and BOTH of them I was in a relationship with at one time.

-- I'm not a hypocrite. When I say it I mean it and follow thru, some people can not do that. Example, This chick wanna yell at me for puttin her business on the internet like she has never done it herself. FAIL I know wtf I do and I don't deny it one bit.

-- I don't allow people to disrespect me, PERIOD.

-- I love my family even though we are all corrupted but what family isn't? In the end that's all we really have.

--I'm very independent which is weird because when I was younger everything was given to me but theres time when people need to grow up and I grew up when I was 14.

-- I handle my own shit, I don't get unnecessary people involved into my issues because if I did, it will never get solved.

-- I pretty much do as I please but I know my limits, I'm an adult, NOT a child.

-- I respect my elders, there is no reason for me to argue or yell at someones mother or father/grandmother or grandfather. That disrespectful, some people think its cute and need a good ass whoopin like they have no damn home training.....then again...they probably don't have any home training.

--I hate kids. Just wanted to state that.

-- I usually have dirt on everyone I don't like, thats why people don't bother me, and it upsets them because, I don't go and do dumb shit so people have nothing to say about me.

-- Last but not least, I have goals and I don't care who thinks I'm not doing shit or I'm not shit because regardless of what you say I'm on my shit and eventually you will probably be the ones working for me. =)

"But I Love Him?"

Okay guys, so I'm sure you've heard one of your friends or maybe YOURSELF use the phrase "But I love him" to make up for the dumb shit your boyfriend/husband did. Well it's about that time you cut the crap, I can understand he may have cheated one time and never again but if he's cheating with the world, there's a problem.

Well I asked guys AND girl what they had to say about the situation.

Guy 1 said, "bitches is stupid... besides my gf and my close girl-friends" -- So true.

Guy 2 said, "Don't matter what you say she's still gonna fcuk with me" -- HAHA! lol

Girl 1 said, "GIRL THEY ARE PATHETIC IF U DONT STAND FOR NOTHING YOULL FALL FOR ANYTHING.....IF HE LOVES YOU THEN HE WOULDNT DO WHAT HE DID ITS SHOULD BE CLEAR THAT YOUR JUST AN OPTION!!!!!!!"

Girl 2 said, "Taking this into thought.. Tht term has been stretched. But in all fairness.. Love is blind... Ppl are blinded by love so they ignore the faults of the man. Same as men "lovin" the chicken heads... Or the sneaker hoes." -- Also very true.

Now I'm gonna explain WHY I'm writing this. At first I was upset about it because she was a friend of mine until she threw me under the bus and started with that bitchassness so now I get to laugh at the dumb bitch rather than look out for her.

Okay so, she met this boy...IDK when, but anyways she falls in love with him supposively but she only fell in love with him because she lost her virginity to him lol Typical right? But anyways she told me "I know he loves me too"....In WHAT WORLD? Mind you, he slept with her younger sister, your cousin, and some other girl. I'm sure there is more that I don't know about but you telling me all that is OKAY cuz you "love" him. Then she got the nerve to tell me "You only know the bad things you don't know the good things" So your telling me just because he did some good things makes up for him sleeping with your sister? Who BTW was 14 at the time....hmmmm I think not.
But the funny thing is that she thinks she's special when shes just an "option" and I remember that one night when she said "I been nutted in so many times" LOL REALLY? So you just think your cool now because you have him inside you like your sister and your cousin??? Oh yeah so think he use protection because he told you lol Just like he told some other girls he uses protection with you....FAIL. Anyways one day I hear from a friend that the day she lost her virginity he just did it and had people sittin outside your house waiting for him to finish so he can leave. Bet you felt stupid when you walked outside and seen people lookin at you. HAHA!
I used to feel bad but I can laugh now because you are indeed a dumb bitch. What else is there to say....Um....nothing much I guess....oh yeah when she decided to throw me under the bus I put all this info on Twitter and dedicated it to her....then she wanted to fight me.....fight me because I was speaking the truth...BOO HOO are you gonna cry about it because fight or not I'm not the one who has to deal with someone who fucked my sister or cousin or friend. How does it feel to know he's been in your SISTER...like what he does with you is what YOUR sister had....lol I hope you feel good about yourself now. =)

With that said, Don't be like her, because then you will be shamed upon for the rest of your life. LMFAO

And stop with that "But I love him" Bullshit.

Inspiration of the Day

Come Together.

Fashion Look for Girl and Guy of the Day

You can get this at Forever21 but I would actually wear a little darker colored leggings.

You can get this at Heritage1981. Ladies love a man who can dress.

Inspiration of the Day

BE ORIGINAL.

HIV/AIDS in your area....

But first some FACTS you may not know....

• HIV and AIDS are NOT the same thing.

HIV (human immunodeficiency virus) is a virus that attacks the body's immune system, which protects your body from disease and someone is said to have AIDS if their immune systems are badly damaged by the HIV virus, or if they develop serious infections connected with HIV.

NOTE: People don't die from AIDS itself, but from the other diseases that AIDS leaves you susceptible to...understand?? GOOD!

• You can't get HIV OR AIDS from casual contact like kissing, hugging, sharing toilet seats or water fountains. (Sharing toilet seats sounds gross but we do it everyday lol)

Since the virus CANNOT live outside the body, there's no way to contract the disease through sneezing or coughing or insect bites mkay?

• How you CAN get it......

AIDS is spread ONLY through blood, semen, vaginal fluids and breast milk. You can contract AIDS through both anal and vaginal sexual intercourse, and by sharing needles for drugs or piercings. So make sure that when you get any type of tattoo or piercing, that the needles are CLEAN!!!

• If you choose to have sex, the best way to combat AIDS is to practice SAFER sex.

Using latex condoms, gloves and/or dental dams can reduce the spread of AIDS. However, since condoms break, abstinence is the only sure-fire way to avoid contracting the disease (meaning NO SEX AT ALL).

• Getting treatment.

While there is no cure for AIDS, with new drugs people are able to live with AIDS for longer and longer. However, these drugs are often only available in wealthy countries.


With that said, now you know some facts about the virus/disease but let's get down to the statistics in the Poughkeepsie area.

In the Poughkeepsie, Newburgh, and Middletown area there is 3,255 cases of AIDS in those 3 cities.

Poughkeepsie's population alone is about 29,654 people.
49.2% - White
35.7% - Black
10.6% - Hispanic
5.3% - Other Race
4.1% - Two or More Races
1.2% -American Indian
0.6% - Asian American

So my advice to EVERYBODY, is to wrap it up, there is nothing safe about unsafe sex.

Why are we here again? - War in Iraq

September 16th, 2007
"Thousands of angry protesters including the families of dead US soldiers marched in Washington demanding an end to the war in Iraq, the return of US troops and the impeachment of President George W Bush."


That was more than 2 years ago.....So can someone explain to me WHY are we still at war???


It's almost 2010, we have a new President, and there are still people getting killed over seas because our gov't sucks and don't know wtf their doing. Whatever happen to Peace, Love, and Happiness.....oh yeah and world peace.


With that said, George Bush and friends = douchebags

Inspiration of the Day

Jimi Hendrix


"When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace."


=)

Let's have the DEATH talk.

So, I must say, death does not scare me.
I don't think it should and if you think about it what exactly are you afraid of?
Unless your going to hell of course.
That's something you should be afraid of lol
But anyways let's state this,

"I'm not afraid to die, I just don't want to..."

Fin.

Behind the Scenes

I'm covering a lot in this one.

I've heard people say "Don't judge a book by its cover" my WHOLE life and I'm just realizing EXACTLY what they mean. See I'm on a mini vaca in New York right now and there are some people that I know that I actually hung out with that seem SO nice and SO innocent and its SO CRAZY the shit you find out from people.

First

See I met this girl through a X-friend of mine. I chilled with her sometimes and when it comes to boys, she very...IDK veryyyy shy I might say or protective of herself, so it seemed in my eyes. She's young though so I would assume she would be shy when older guys come and talk to her. Note: Don't assume lol. So this is what we have, Nice, Pretty, Shy, Respectable, Young Lady from the outside looking in.

I find out: She talks to almost every guy in the city, has naked pictures floatin around on EVERYBODYS cell phone, and is secretly bisexual. Which is odd because she's the type that would think thats unacceptable. Can anybody say AWKWARD?

Second

I knew this boy since....let's see middle school maybe? Who knows who cares. He's a rude one. He thinks he's on top of the world and better than everybody who isn't his friend. I never really talked to him but when I did it was very little. I stopped liking him once he became rude to my boyfriend. I don't like people disrespecting people I love PERIOD. SO! I think about everybody that KNOWS him thinks he's gay and its not like he's just feminine he's WAY more than that. I know its uncomfortable with like coming out or whatever but if everybody knows, why not? And I'm not saying it to be an asshole even tho I am one but I'm saying....Come the fuck on now bro!! I mean I can understand if he wasn't at all but I mean posting stuff on Facebook like "snuggling in my blanket, its so warm!!! =)" or getting into a full blown out argument about Beyonce because someone dislikes her and he wanna rip heads off. On top of that a majority of his friend are gay so I mean whats the problem??? I will never understand but its about that time, I'm getting aggravated.

Third

This one is about me =) The outside looking in, people that don't know me don't like me because someone they know don't like me. Typical. I'm an asshole to a certain extent. I'm just completely honest. Don't ask questions if you don't want the answer. Don't txt me or message me wanting to argue when you don't know facts. I base everything I say off facts. You will never hear me lie about a situation I'm in. There is always some type of drama around me, people say I'm always in something, yeah I admit I am but then again, I'm in it because people can not get over the fact that I do not LIE about shit. They wanna argue with me constantly when I KNOW the truth. But I mean I don't care I don't really stress shit until people start lying because I will fight to the death until the truth is out.

Example 1: A long time ago I wrote a blog about a bunch of people that was pissing me off. I wrote a piece about this girl Ann and how she was 2-faced for talking shit about her friend to me and my friend Karina and then going to her friend and smile in her face like she wasn't just going in on her. Now MY friend Dee Dee, me and her used to hate each other lol but we are friends now but Dee Dee read that blog and she thought I was being a bitch because she thought I was saying it for no reason. So now that me and her are friend I told her the reason WHY I said it and she was like "Oh!!!...I def did not know that" I'm not gonna make shit up and call people out if I don't have background info. I always have a reason why I say shit.

Example 2: Me and this girl Jalesa used to be friends until she decided to go down the wrong path and now I just don't like her. Anyways me n her hung out ALL summer basically and then this boy comes in her life and everything changes like shes on top of the world and oh so mighty. FAIL much? Yes Indeed. Long story short. She was fudgin up with this boy and I'm lookin out for her basically and she throws me under the bus. By giving him her phone to read the txt I was sending her. Now I been in high school and I'm def not stupid. She wanted some excitement and started drama because he came at me cursing at me and saying he's gettin this person and that person. At that point what he is sayin doesn't matter to me he's only 16 and he's from Poughkeepsie soooo yeahhhh PK has that effect on young kids. Hopefully he grows outta it before he fucks with the wrong person.
Anyways the next day he said sorry, which was odd but Jalesa didn't say shit to me. Not a sorry or anything so I'm like if anybody touches me it gonna be me and her and I was calm as ever I was just letting her no. She wrote me back and said "HAHA Are you mad?" That triggered something in me that I was gonna do something fucked up. So I did. Everything she told me about her and that boy was posted on Twitter and dedicated to her. She when she wanted to confront me about it all I was gonna say was "HAHA Are you mad?" Dose of her own medicine mkay? =) Anyways after that she wanted to cry and bitch and show her grandma, I'm sorry I'm grown I don't need her approval. By the way Jalesa is my boyfriends cousin. It's funny how he acts more mature than her.
Anyways, the night after I wrote all that and she showed her grandma I went downstairs to say happy birthday to her grandma but at that point I didn't know her grandmother knew. And from there Jalesa was trying to fight me. How Poughkeepsie is that? So basically her grandma thinks I made all that shit up, must I remind you I DO NOT LIE ABOUT SHIT. So she's mad Jalesa is in tears because shes either mad she got exposed or she cries when shes upset. So nothing happen that night and I go back upstairs. Next day she still wants to fight, like since when was she thugged out lol. So she comes upstairs argue argue argue and she hits me. How lovely, I told her I didn't want to fight her to begin with but she hit me first so I'm allowed to hit her back lol So we go outside and fight, shit was wack. For one people kept pulling us apart, 2 it was cold as fuck outside, and 3 when I wasnt done fighting she wants to leave and go i dont even no where. So then, for some reason she thinks she beat my ass....thats how you can tell someone doesn't fight alot because i dont even know why she had that thought in her head.
Anywho, that same night she came home and we had to talk it out because my boyfriends mom was upset stuff in her house was broken. Jalesa said sorry, I said sorry it was dead. Until the next day she was still going and I was planning on going to her house and fucking her up like I wanted to but that wouldve been major jail time lol Later that night my boyfriends mom goes downstairs and tell Jalesa to cut the shit. Her grandma gets mad and says if anything happens she pressing charges. Do what you gotta do lady cuz you will lose. So basically long story short, Jalesa starts shit and runs to her grandma to save her when shes sad. Mind you my family was not involved with this because if they were it wouldn't be pretty.

That made me realize who is real and who isn't. Which that said I would stay away from her because for one she's a snitch, she's unreal, and she lies. AKA Average PK bitch. So once again, I win all over again because I don't get looked down upon.

And that is my First, Second, and Third of the day =)

Welcome back.

I haven't blogged in idk how long....
I been on Twitter and Facebook.

Anyways, I'm still in South Carolina unfortunately and just when I thought it couldnt get any worse it does. My old college wont send my transcripts to my new college until I pay $4,500. Ridiculous I know, but my parents aren't taking this serious and I only have 3 months to pay that off. I been crying A LOT. I've never cried so much in my life. Everyday and almost all night. My boyfriend isn't any support whats so ever.

I've realized no matter how many people I tell wtf is wrong with me and whats going on I'm the one who has to deal with it and nobody else. I got in an arguement with my boyfriend today about something stupid and I hung up on him.

My WHOLE school situation is fucked up along with how my parents are going along with it and he wants to complain to me about being home and bored. This is how our convo went:

Chris: OMG!! I'm so bored -_-
Me: (aggravated) Okay chris do you have to be doing something ALL THE TIME?
Chris: No, but I'm saying I'm not doing NOTHING, just sitting here watching tv.
Me: Well I have to do that everyday...
Chris: Well I'm not you.
Me: (Hang up)

Does this nigga think I like being here. The first month I was here I cried almost everyday and I still to get upset about STILL being here.

But you know his "boredom" is way more important than whats going on in everyone else problem in the world. On top of that I don't understand why EVERYBODY except him seems to hit me up to see how I'm feeling. Even nigga I don't even talk to on a daily basis. Like shit is fuckin ridiculous. Then he wanna tell me I'm wrong for hanging up. I refuse to listen to his BS. When something REALLY fucked up happens then he can come and complain to me.

And now he wants to "talk this out" I don't have time to "talk" about shit thats not important. He says "I'm pushing him away and IDC" I'm not pushing you away I just don't wanna hear about BS. If I didn't wanna be with you I wouldn't and he keep tellin me ima keep pushing him until he leaves. Well do what you gotta do if you wanna leave because I don't feel bad for you then be the fuck out. I mean I do love him with everything but he cant be comin at me with some stupid shit and think ima be like awww poor baby. I'm not gonna feel sorry for you just like you and nobody else feels sorry for me. Plain and simple.

Happy Birthday, I guess.

I'm assuming that the birthday cake next to the blogger logo means today is the site birthday.
Soooo....
Happy Birthday.
Save some cake.
=)

Death Row

So I'm in gross ass South Carolina,
I HATE IT.
People are so...UGH!!!
Theres no Forever21...
-_-
Theres no Macys
-_-
I'm gonna die.
THEN on top of that my mom was trying to make friends for me and had me chillin with a SLORE all day. ughhhh
I asked her if there was a forever21 she said "No, but theres a burlington coat factory."
HOW DARE SHE SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO ME!!!!
SO.....I will see you guys in HELLLL!!!

Fin.

Ugh boredom O_O

Okay so Dee Dee makes me get up every Tuesday and Thursday at flipping 6am to come to DCC (Dutchess Community College) with her. Now that I'm here I'm bored as HELL and I'm tired as I don't even know what, but anyways so far Tia hasn't accomplished her goal lol as in (Beating my ass).
Thats just lovely that shes just like 22 and wants to fight but yeah I can't lie. If someone did something to me like that I would want to fight too but then again shes mad old.....You guys just don't know what I'm talking about so heres the story....

1. The Story behind the plot.
2. The Scheme
3. The Success
4. The Aftermath lol


1. The story: My first semester at Dutchess of last year was fun, everybody was friends, and nobody had beef. The first person I really did not like was Sable because he was just a DRAMA QUEEN craving for attention and thats sad, your in college sweetie grow up. Anyways one day I'm going to the bathroom and I go in, and see Sable in the bathroom on the floor with a crowd around her. Everybody told me she fainted, I don't remember who I was with but I know whoever it was, was majoring in nursing. So my friend looked like "She didn't faint" but she said it too me, so I just say "Ugh! I just can't stand her like why would she fake something like that and have people worried about her." And I knew she didn't faint, when your blood pressure is low your not laying on the ground couching and rolling around and shit, your just weak, you just lay there looking mad dead and shit but not completely because your still concious. But scratch that, little shit like that, I just don't like. So sable left went to the nurse for like 10 minutes and came back like nothing happen and when I said she faked it people heard me so of course Tia told Sable, did I care? Uh nooooooo....Like how UNREAL would that be of me to care lol. Anyways after that I was lookin at Tia a whole diff way, on top of that I was right behind them without them knowing but when Sable did turn around and see me she def kept it movin lol. Cuz you know shes TOO REAL. Another incident was a MYSPACE situation (By the way, Tia LIVES on myspace, DEAD ASS) but anyways, yeah one day FIRST semester everybody was takin pix and havin fun. So I'm taking a picture with a bunch of guys actin dumb and this randim ass girl Olivia jumps in last minute and I'm like uhhh...okay. Like I didn't know who she was so I was like its whatever. So I put the pic on myspace with the rest of my pics on myspace in the ME & OTHERS album. So the caption was, "I was the only girl that was suppose to be in this pic but bxtches gotta mess it up lol" NOW, Tia....goes around DCC to people sayin I got beef with the girl. Honestly people know me, If I don't like a girl they sure as hell KNOW it. But yeah, then all of a sudden Tia just doesn't like me and shes just a FULL TIME HATER. Like theres a difference from when you dont like someone and ya just ignore each other but she be talking about me like I'm a dick. SOOOO all this shit is goin down and I have little patience so I ready to fuck everybody up but yeah I'm just in college and was 18 at the time. So my bestfriend Karina said oh lets just talk this out and see whats going on, sooooo being the dumb bxtches they are, they really came to my step practice and they RARELY come. So I was like "get them bxtches out of here before someone gets hurt." And they just walked outside the door. Karina got Tia and got me. We basically talked it out and I told Tia, If I had beef with a bitch I will let her know I don't need someone else doing talking for me especially if your not my nigga. Tia said "Oh...I just thought that was fucked up that you said that about Olivia and I knew her for mad long and I just met you this year so I stopped talking to you or whatever. Okay so what happen to askin me if I had beef with her, how REAL was that. So yeah, we had this convo privately, so after step practice everybody goes back to the cafe and Tia acts like we didn't even have a convo, giving me dirty looks and she. HOW REAL IS THAT?! I thought it was funny cuz bitches are NOT REAL. So basically Sable didn't like me, Tia didn't like me, Sam didn't like me cuz shes a follower and a loser lol, Ann doesn't like me cuz she two faced so I distanced myself from her because she was talking about Sable and its not like me and Sable was friends but Ann was friends with her like hard body that was her nigga and shes talkin shit about her to my and Karina saying she looks like a hoe and a slut. Then go in her face like "Oh you shouldn''t do that it doesn't make you look nice, like you ddn't look like a lady". REALLY? How REAL is that???? So I cut her off for that, me and Dee Dee never really had a problem it was just Tia talking shit and made people not like me but I just don't care I'm just not gonna cry about it I'm just gonna ruin their lives!!! lol I'm wyling but honestly the only person I REALLY don't like is Tia, so the most UNREAL person in the fuckin WORLD. SOOOOOOOOO I decided to fuck up her life a little bit.

2. The scheme: Okay basically, everywhere I go, no matter where I see Tia she starts talking about me, no matter who shes with, like, I'm just THAT important. Anyways I found out Tia's myspace password and email thats to one of her "FRIENDS" (I'm telling you, nobody is REAL) anyways, I got on her shit and deleted her myspace, plain and simple. But you know whats funny. I went on her myspace and deleted little shit like some friends and her page. Then I signed off. She signed back on and noticed it and wrote on her status like "look what this little bitch did" or some shit like that but she still didnt change her password lol. Like she mad dumb, so I signed back on and deleted EVERYTHING. Then I made a video with the web cam and told her I did it and told her she wasn't gonna do shit about it. Another funny thing is her messages Tia was talking to Sam about me and Sam said "Oh if anything happens I got your back" LMFAO WTF are you gonna do Sam "crump us to death" lmfao. Theres a story behind that, Last year halloween I went to the club and Sam was there but she had on a BIG ass dress cuz mind u she doesnt get to go ANYWHERE. But anyways she had on a big ass dress that went down to her ankles and to her wrist and to her fcukin neck. Fully covered and then she had the nerve to crump in it like WTFFFFF!!!! Embarrassing much?! But anyway yeah her shit is just gone. O_O

3.The Success: So yeahhhh....She found out I deleted her shit and she said I was gonna get beat up when she see's me. Plain and Simple. I'm just the fcukin SHITTTT.

4. The Aftermath: HAHA She's mad. I seen her like 5 times already and she didn't pop cuz you know shes TOOOOO REALLL. Hehe =)

New York - South Carolina

My days are limited guyyssss...
So, I'm leaving on Monday to South Carolina.
Main Goal: University of South Carolina.
Major: Psychology (PhD Flow)
I like my new place....pretty spiffy.
....and I'm sitting with my friend Charlie...
He wants to go into the Air Force or Marines...which ever,
Either way he's gettin blown up so yeah =)
Charlie says: "i am not n i repeat not getting blown up.... i will be doing the blowing (pause) up!!!!!"

-_- Lovely grammar Charlie lol
like I said....Bang! And ya dead.
x_x

Oh Follow Me!!!!!

-_-
This is the part were I curse you bloggers out.
Fcukin fronters.
My issue: Ya don't read my blogs but write a comment that says "nice blog follow me"

I take that offensive. If I read your blog I'm going to leave a comment that RELATES to the blog. Your choice if you choose to follow me or not.

=) or =(

So i finished packing. Thats why im mobile right now.... No more computer. Anyways my action packed weekend was a flop so now i catch the z's. Pce.

Back to school.

Betsey Johnson Back to School Charm Bracelet.
$80.00



I will DIE for this!

Action Packed.

This weekend might be good.
MIGHT be good.

Friday - Chill with Dee Dee & Tubman basketball game where we can get shot lol

Saturday - Queens to Amala's party "Are you down?"

Sunday - Shit. No plans. Leave a comment if u wanna chill...if not...FCUK OFF!!

But besides that, my days are limited so I plan on doin WTF I want when I want ^_^
Excuse my recklessness.....but I just...dont care.

Fellow Bloggers.

Ya piss me off....well not really

But if you want me to follow you I will, its nuttin.

But don't send me shyt like "Oh! I will follow you and blahblahblah" and then don't.

I just didn't know it was that serious. This shit is not myspace your either down or not.

Dickheads.

WTF times 10 like x10

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO............

Farewell New York.
Hello South Carolina.

Is my mom trying to kill me?
Yes.

I love New York, I'm a city chick.
And she moves me to west bumbafcuk.

Oh well, Shit happens.

Hello Blogger #4

DAMNNNNN SHAWDY BADDDDD!!!! - Geez, Alisha says that just, EVERYDAY.

Anyways, Monday night was CRAZYYYYY!!!!

It started off with me and Alisha just chillin in her house. Then Tiff git lite came through. Then Trace God came through. And it was a wrap.

I'm just upset we drove to Stop and Shop.
I knocked down mad shyt off the shelves because....I just had no reason lol.
Had a sword fight with tracey and video taped it (Coming soon) lol
Played basketball and threw the ball into another aisle. (I just missed by like a mile)
Spent $50 on bullshit.
And stole my first pack of gum. lol

Then back to Alisha's house.
Its about 11pm.
We all laying in her bed just talking about LIFE.
Talked about Dee Dee's shorts lol. (Pretty much stolen by Ch*****)
Talked about Tracey's man problems. (Big guys are the one's with the small....)
Talked about just wack ass niggas....just...WACK
So wack that you just want to forget about them, and at some point you do.
Home at 2:30am.

Just one crazy night. I don't ever act so reckless but I just....DON'T CARE.

Headache.

I'm gonna fcukin DIE!!!!
My head is KILLING ME!
I'm so about 2 go to sleep and hope it goes away by 2morrow.

Hello Blogger #3

I feel MAD crappy.

The End.

Welcome to Heartbreak.

I'm bumpin Kanye TOO HARD right now.

Anyways, me & him are done. I called it quits.

The Story:
When I met him it was like ^_^ all the time. I was happy with him. October - November we was together. I always had suspicions about his friend Ty but they both told me they are good friends and best friend friends so no worries. Me trusting him, I didn't worry about it until she wrote a blog saying she was IN LOVE with him. I was shocked and hurt. I got over it thought. She moved away to a different state so it was nothing to me.
Now a while ago Chris (my now ex) was at my house using the computer. He left his myspace on so I looked through it because I wanted to, I shouldn't have to be worried about anything anyways. I looked at some messages and didn't really read them so i just saved them for me to read later.
Later happened to be yesterday. Before I read them though, I asked him if he had anything to tell me and he said "Oh I think I told you but anyways me and *** almost had sex" I was like when, He said "like a week after my birthday" I'm like oh okay...I wasn't going out with him so I didn't even care that much. Then we started talking about smoking and how I feel about it...(btw SMOKING IS BAD GUYS!!! Please don't do it.)
Now I was fine until I decided to read these messages when I found out he didnt almost have sex with ***** a week after his bday in sept. He almost did in November (when we was together) I also found out he smoked. I also found out that he was tellin the same girl he almost had sex with that he loved her. I was upset because he had me thinking she was tryna talk to him and he was leading her on. You don't tell a girl that likes you that you love her and expect her to feel no way about it. I also seen the comment when she said "Awww ur my favorite!!" and he said "I won't believe it until i feel it"
Now all of this happening in one night is pretty overwhelming.

I didn't break up with him because of the stuff he did in the past.

I broke up with him because he lied to me then about him and his bestfriend just being friends and he lied to me last night.

If he told me the truth, I wouldve been hurt but he still would've had a girlfriend.

So to me, you lied then and you lied now, and your just not going to change.

Hello Blogger #2

SO! I've been working and at my boyfriends house for some days now, but as of right now I'm so MAD!!! Mom said we're moving to Arizona -_- What the hell is in Arizona? I like the city so why would you move me all the way across the country.

But besides that, for everyone who doesn't know....Micheal Jackson is dead =/ and there are rumors saying he was dead for like 20 years already and someone was jus acting like him. What kind of b.s. news is that. Well anyways, may be rest in peace. At least the New York State Senate will have a break from the front page news.

Next topic: Calling me stupid when your only 14. Def not a good idea.

This is me,

High School Graduate - 2nd yr in college

This is you,


I rest my case.

Hello Blogger #1

So, I have this new job at Marist College where we call and harass people and ask them questions. I get hung up on a lot but I usually don't get cursed at because I have a small voice so they would probably feel like crap it they yells at me. Anyways, I thought I would be working like every week and I'm NOT which sucks. SO I guess I will just have to ask them for more hours even though I HATE working at night but its whatever, money is money.

My old job, KFC, they suck at life....anybody in the Poughkeepsie area DO NOT WORK AT KFC....well the one on Main Street. My aunt is the manager and shes just a total BIOTCH! She fired me once for no reason and my mom going to file for unemployment and my aunt gave me my job back. Yay -_-. Anyways, after I got my job back I was working a good 35 hours a week training a new person they hired. After she was trained my aunt cut my hours to 15 and gave the new girl all my hours...smh like I said a total BIOTCH!!! Now I know when they cut your house like that, that means they are going to fire you soon. SO, I quit before they could fire me and got a new job the next day. ^_^ BASTARDS!!

Through all of this "KFC Drama" just made me Realize that:

NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOU.
THEY'RE TOO BUSY CARING ABOUT THEMSELVES.

Realized though Enlightening Thought #32

And now I throw you under the bus to go and care about my oh so wonderful self.








BTW - Happy Father's Day for all the REAL fathers.

Ugh @ myself

NY is killing me.
My skin is darker than usual.
I'm breaking out badly!!!
I gained weight....alot of weight.
My clothes don't fit anymore.
I can't see (no glasses).
I'm being a bitch to people.
My hair is breaking off.
My job isn't paying me cuz I haven't been working.
I can't go shopping.
I have no phone.
I feel hideous -_-
and....

I'm slackin in life =/

Best show of 2009 so far....

GLEE!!!! Oh em gee! You have to see.....these kids are effin AMAZING!....and I really hated High School Musical...smh....but this is jus pretty ohhhdeee =)

"Ur mom said WHAT?.........oh...."

So...another blog on random thoughts.....

by the way....the title...Just something i say a lot

SOOOO!!!!!

1 - I hate Poughkeepsie. It's just...THE WORSE. People killing people....kids with kids...you know the usual. That shit is not normal...like....I dont understand since when was it okay for a 15 year old to have a baby. YOU ARE NOT OLD ENOUGH TO HAVE A CHILD UNTIL YOU HAVE A CAREER!!!! NONE THE LESS....YOU CAN AFFORD ONE. Career doesn't mean a part time job or full time job at KFC. I mean college degree and you on ur shit. I understand mistakes happen but if you didn't prevent it from happening then it wasn't a mistake. UNDERSTAND?

2 - Not liking me. I understand that everybody isn't going to like me because I'm brutally honest. But then again I don't who likes me and who doesn't. I know who my friends are and I don't need anymore. The end.

3 - M.O.N? Just stop. PLEASE! Females who say M.O.N are either broke or can't find a man or both. Never in life would you hear me say that shyt. And when your like 20 and over, I'd be damned if I hear you say that shit. That means your just not going nowhere in life, just str8 Poughkeepsie for life....like a jail sentence....I'm sayin that cuz a girl said that to me....shes like 21...has a kid...you know how pk ppl do. I thought it was funny....cuz shes not gettin money wit no job and shes not pullin no men so how does she sound.....

4 - Fast ass little girls. Need to get there asses beat. I was walking to my cousins house the other day and this little girl jus thought she was jus too BAD....I was tight cuz she looked me up and down...ARE YOU SERIOUS?...like I'm not a grown ass woman and I'm not in college lmao...go read a book.

5 - Kid after kid. After you have your first child at 17 why start on a second one. No college education, but stay home and talk shit on myspace and be pregnant. 99.9% of people reading this KNOW who i'm talking about. Chill all day everyday just PREGNANT. lol and got the nerve to try and talk about someone else cuz we doin something with out lives.

6 - Bi, Lesbians, Gay individuals. I have no problem with them. Are they not human? I don't like discrimination and I don't appreciate people saying they don't like a certain kind of person. You don't like gay people you can kick rocks....BAREFOOT.

7 - My relationship. Stay out of it, it's me and him not you and him or me and you. Mind your business and don't get urself embarrassed.

8 - My grammar sucks when it comes to typing. That's because I don't CARE.

9 - I'm gaining weight, yes I know and it SUCKS major..... I need to go to the gym anybody care to join???

10 - I HATE WEAVE!!!! OMG!!!! I have box braids right, they are suppose to last months. I hate them and want them out....never again. BTW I don't like when people say that weave is their real hair. You sound like a dumbass.

Fin.

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Cause it hurts me soul...

My mom can't feed me, my boyfriend beats me
I have sex for money, the hood don't love me
The cops wanna kill me, this nonsense built me
And I got no place to go
They bomb my village, they call us killers
Took me off they welfare, can't afford they health care
My teacher won't teach me, my master beats me
And it hurts me soul
They took my daughter, we ain't got no water
I can't get hired, they cross on fire
We all got suspended, I just got sentenced
So I got no place to go
They threw down my gang sign, I ain't got no hang time
They talk about my sneakers, poisoned our leader
My father ain't seen me, turn off my TV
'Cause it hurts me soul
They say I'm infected, this is why I injected
I had it aborted, we got deported
My laptop got spyware, they say that I can't lie here
But I got no place to go
I can't stop eatin, my best friend's leavin
My pastor touched me, I love this country
I lost my earpiece, I hope y'all hear me
'Cause it hurts me soul

Cool for thoughts....

• This past weekend was one of the best I've had so far this year. Partying at Marist College with Dole™
  

• My mom is starting to leave me alone and letting me do as I please. Finally, it was starting to get on my nerves.

• I redecorated my bedroom so it looks pretty effin HOT.... Dracula is still on my wall. I'm sorry Alisha but he's not going anywhere.

• My boyfriend is a jerk for this one lol....def wasn't paying attention. =0

• I think you're funny looking....I'm sorry I get bored sometimes.

• She has the cutest dog in the WORLD. I'm jealous -_-

• Me and Karina went to Olive Garden today. It was my first time there and it was... THE SHYTTTTTTTTTTT....hehe

• Friday night - Amici's Pizza ^_^ THE BEST. I eat too much...BTW...Chris ate half.

• Super emotional Monday O_O just the thought "Always tell people how you feel about them everyday because you don't know if you will ever see them again after that day."
  

Jesus pieces and Reese pieces

Random much?
I don't understand...
I see, men wearing the Jesus piece around their neck all shiny and what not like "Grace Kelly...Grace Kelly" LOL insider...anyways they got they shiny chain....and yeah...those are the ones that are sellin illegal substances on dee corner...smh...
I don't know if they wear it for "protection" or if they pray with it or they use it like to make their "prayers/wishes" come true lmao or...maybe so they think the police won't catch them (I very much DISLIKE the police..smh...fcuk the gov't)
NOW....if this Jesus piece was worn to make wishes come true or something like that...
I would def wish I had some more damn Reeses in dis bit...
Mom def ate them all...Which makes me angry (GR!) see....
Now I have no chocolate until....idk...
It SUCKS not knowing smh...
This is TRAGIC.
End.

Update of my life (OH FUN! -_-)

I haven't been on Blogger in a hot minute...
Why?
Because the world just decided to END for the past week on me so I been dealing with that.
No but really, I HATE living in this "place" like....
LOL My mom kicked me out sooooo I had to stay at my friends house for a day and a half.
You know why I got kicked out...
Cuz I don't listen...
NO SHIT
How you tell me to be in the house at 9pm....like
last time I checked I was 18 years old (almost 19)
and you tellin me to be inside at 9pm
on top of that I can't go to ANYONES house but my boyfriends or my aunts
cant go to the mall, parties, ANYWHERE
and Yes this will continue because I REFUSE to be inside at 9pm
My mom isnt even here at NINE
but yes on top of that they cut my hours at work
from 25 to 20 to 10
Now its at 15
Mind you, I have to pay for college by myself because my mom...once again
Isn't doing her taxes...
SO therefore she can't kick me out
Cuz SHE hasn't done her taxes in like 5 years
You know if I jus happen to tell the IRS
She will get put into jail but you know
I'm not THAT fcuked up....
okay yeah I am but shes ugh...
I don't like you mother.
What else has happen???...
uhhh...nothing I guess...
Yes leave comments just to tell me
"Oh that's messed up"
Yes I know...We all know...
I think I was better off homeless for the past day and a half.
I didn't even ask to come back lol
She's just like....Are you gonna listen or get out.
I just looked at her...and ate some pizza ^_^
Now...I have to work soooo let me go 2 work...PCE

When is this going to STOP!!!

Guys did you know I still need a fcukin babysitter...mind you I'm 18.

This morning I came to my college because I had step practice.

Anyways, I was informed that someone called my cousin and said I was starting drama at Trey's house (Note: Sleepover was at Trey's house, they are talking about the same night)

ANYWAYS...since when was I the type of person to start drama? Like really? ME? They said to me, "You said don't let those bitches in here"

YEAH I said it but can you at least complete the sentence...I said

"If they are coming here to start madness do not let those bitches in here cuz I'm not wit it...."

Voila! Does that sound like I'm startin sumtin.....

Note: If I wanted to start something I would've simply just punched you in the face ^_^

But yeah...mad the girl called my cousin just to tel her to not start nothing lol.

Enyn: "Fcukin bobblehead ass bitch wit a big ass nose"

LMAO

Enyn: "She wanna eat like a man she can get hit like one too"

lol that was too funny but nobody repeated that....but IM the one startin shyt lol

smh HATERS

Sleepover.

SO Trey had a little sleepover. It was fun until the birds came -_-
Then other niggaz wanna fcuk it up but anyways the funniest shit happen that night...
Like you find out about mad ppl when u drunk lol

It started with my cuzzin Bri making drinks ^_^

Then we ate food that WE cooked

Then we drank

and drank some more....

and more...

Then....we was fcukin SMACKED



THEN I found out this bitch in the background smokes water lmfao....bitch really came out like "Yo the craziest shit I've ever smoked was water..." Niggaz was mad silent after that...I guess she was waitin for someone to be like "Yeah me too..." but we don't fcuk wit that close to cocaine shyt lol...

THEN....KAY OHHHH


Good Morning....Hangover

You hate me.

You hate me.
You aren't nothing to me.
I wish you would stay away from me forever.
You are so full of hate,
Nobody will ever like you,
I hate you.
You hate me.
We will always hate each other always and forever.

Everything I said I meant....
the complete opposite.

For this kid....smh lol

See I have this friend and he always seems sad so I wrote a blog for him...
Short and Simple.
JRev ^_^ your name makes me happy, your the best, and you have cool sneakers.

The End.

Note: 2009 and Obama,

This is getting on my fcuking nerves.

I don't need a reminder ever 5 seconds that my president is black. Like really it quite obvious when you just look at him. -_-

Another thing, people are still bragging about the new year and their a new person....seriously.....your not, you know your the same person from last year, its not like "Oh! It's 2009 time to be different" like there's some magic dust that comes with the new year to change you. UNLESS you started sniffing crack, I can understand. BUT other than that....your the same person and it's February so its NOT a new year. It's a month old now....let it go.

Work much?

So yeah it's 02/06/09 and my schedule for today at work was 4pm - 8pm. Now I get called in, and I work 11am - 8pm. NICE. That just ruined my day and I'm od tired. Whatever time for work. txt it or aim it IM MOBILE.

No Sleep.

I'm not sleeping tonight.
I'm depressed.
I'm sick.
I'm tired.
I'm stressed.
I'm lonely.
I'm NOT suicidal but I wish I was dead.
I'm miserable.
I'm upset with life.
I'm sad at how CARELESS my own FAMILY is (meaning, I have no family).
I'm annoyed.
I'm pissed off.

My mom hasn't been home in days and she wonders why I don't like being home. Note: It's just me and my "mom". She should have the title if she doesn't play the part. So yeah, JULIE hasn't been home in some days because she decided to stay at her friends house because its closer to her job....WHY? because the gov't took her car...WHY? cuz she doesn't pay her fcukin bills...WHY? cuz she waste her money buying beer every fcuking day. It's sad that I can manage my own money better than she can. Anyways she left and didn't tell me until I noticed all her shyt was gone. So I texted her and she just said "might not come home tonight" THE END. Good fcukin job mom. Then she got the nerve to get mad at me cuz I didn't go home. FOR WHAT? to an empty fcuking house. But I'm used to that since your always sleeping when I do come home. Might as well be at work or just not there. SO now I know what it feels like to live by yourself with no family. But I didn't do this by choice. She did it to me on purpose. My dad is waiting for my phone call just for me to say "Iwanna come back to Florida" SORRY not happening did I mention that I don't like YOU either. Yeah but Florida was worse but better at the same time. You wouldn't understand. Only person keeping me here is my auntie and my boyfriend. Nobody else. End of discussion.

Am I done writing? Not so much I don't work til 4 so I have plenty of time to waste.

My room is trashed. I havent cleaned it in about a month because when I get upset I express it. so yeah theres clothes everywhere and I'm not cleaning it until I feel better. I don't wash dishes because I don't make then dirty. I wash my own clothes because thats just what I do. Yeah, call me a gross person for having a dirty room i dont give a fcuk as long as my clothes aint fcukin dirty and neither am i. So there. That's my life summed up. Note I work everyday so if I'm not at work I'm with my boyfriend or my aunt or somehow ended up at "home".

Done yet? Nope I have about 16 hours left.

This blogging thing really does not help but than again it does because I like to express myself but after I'm done typing the problem is STILL there. Not that any of you care but I'm writing it for myself, not you, don't read if you don't care. I have a fcuking headache cuz the bitch across the hall wont STFU. She makes me want to fcukin KILL her. Yes I said KILL her. she fcukin deserves to get ran over by a fcukin train she so damn annoying.

done? not yet. almost though.

If you know me my mind jumps from one topic to another so it may be hard to understand what I'm trying to say but yeah. For some reason I'm starting to hate people. Every person who hasn't liked me and talked about me I feel the need to beat the hell out of them. I'm not a fighter because I try and kill people for the simple fact that my own cousins tried to kill me when I was younger. But you know wtf can I say. SHIT HAPPENS I'm not over it but that what everybody else has been telling me you know...SHIT HAPPENS. Yeah so I guess thats the answer to all problems. SHIT HAPPENS. I can't go to college because of both my parents but you know SHIT HAPPENS. I'm already $3000 + in debt because of my mom but you know SHIT HAPPENS. My mom doesn't REALLY want me living with her but you know SHIT HAPPENS.

So I'm going to lay down and watch cartoons all night. Feel free to txt me people....but if I don't write back you already know...SHIT HAPPENS.

Love is....

Love Is - Jah Cure

Yea ya no...rasta live
Universal sign of love
Love is the answer my friend
Love is the only way
Yea tru love we can find ourselves
I call our true identies
Love ya brudda love ya sista
Love everyone...the univeral sign
Ill take it from here

Chorus
Love is much more to life than just words
Love is much more than choosing your love
Love is call on me brother
Love is call on me sister

Verse 1
When you love someone...you love from the heart
Cuz love is the start ...yay
Love is the answer for every question
Just ask yourself why why why
Love is the key open the door
When they're closed in your face
Love shows you the way when your lost lost
And cant find your way!

Chorus

Verse 2
Love is the only thing we have to share
Dont you forget that...i hope you hear
Send him a message from you out there
I hope you get it clear..yay
Do not mistake my unmistakable sound
When ever you see my face
always a smile bontax dem frown



I love my boyfriend SOOOO much ^_^
IDC if he's mad at me smh I'm mad at you too nigga lol jk
Last Line: For the sneaker freaker Kris who threatened me and said if I don't mention him he will report my page as a fcukin virus lol. So there. Hi Kris.

Carry on.....

I’m tired of fightin’
I’m tired of spitein
My life is a storm full of rainin’ and lightin’
My insides are pledin’ from all of the screamin’,
Sometimes I just feel like I’m no longer breathin’.
I look in yo’ eyes, all I see is a demon
I’m tired of wearin’ my heart on my sleeve and,
I just don’t know why I stay,
‘Cause day after day I continue to say…
I can’t carry on.

She's poison.

She says she's no good
but guys are way worse right?
Easily convinced when he says
"Why don't you show me a little bit spine
You've been saving for his mattress..."
"I'm not sure..."
Then, "I only want sympathy in the form of you
Crawling into bed with me."
"...really?...okay i guess...."

AFTER

She fell outta bed,
Butterfly bandage, but don't worry--
She'll never remember, her head is far too blurry.

He says he's gonna tell everybody what they did (As usual thats how it goes.)

She cries, "I'd promise you anything for another shot at life"

He states, "Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy" and leaves.

Her note to self: "Only if they knew how misery loved me : )"


(A lot of people won't understand what I'm writing but it's really not hard to understand. The girl whoever she is warns the boy she's no good and he doesn't care cuz guys are guys ya know. Some guys are dumb and don't use condoms like this one I'm talking about. She smiles at the end because she's happy he took advantage of her and she just gave him HIV. Yeah GUYS BE SAFE!!! O_O and girls...yeah...you should already know.)

The last time....

I prayed with my grandfather, when I was at least 5 years young. This is when I lived in the Bronx. But I still remember that night. And that prayer.

"This night I lie down to sleep,

I pray the Lord my soul to keep.

If I should die before I wake,

I pray the Lord my soul to take."

Truth be told.....

Nobody is perfect....here's a little about me that you should know...or not lol...

I HATE Poughkeepsie.
I'm ticklish on my knees (Weird right? lol).
I don't eat Mayo but I eat Tuna Fish Sam-iches (Which is made with...Mayo).
Don't eat Tomatoes but have an obsession with Ketchup.
Never had a cavity in my life but I live off candy.
I lived in Colorado before.
I almost failed the 9th grade.
I beat up my one of my good friends before (No name...thats kinda fcuked up).
My dad is a world class chef and no he doesn't have a TV show.
I went to Disney World over 20 times.
I ate a squid before.
I fell in love with this boy Chris...who is now my boyfriend.
My skin peels when it touches bleach (Gross right? lol)
The smell of Buffalo Sauce makes me nauseous.
My mom got married and didn't tell me.
I broke my wrist and didn't know until I went to get a physical lol.
I have an obsession with Scooby Doo and other good cartoons.
Scary movies really do SCARE me.
I almost burned my sisters face with the iron (I was angry -_-)
I like fluffy things ^_^.
I only wear designer glasses.
I have an obsession with Chef Boyardee Spaghetti and Meatballs lol.
If I cut myself lightly on accident i drink my own blood.
I think old people smell like diapers.
I don't like hospitals.
I get a lot of "cold chills" meaning I shiver rally hard out of nowhere.
I like Gossip Girl and wish my life was similar to theirs.
My mom is a workaholic.
I hate beer...my mom drinks it a lot.
I haven't seen my step dad since I was like 6.
I don't talk to my grandparents.
Forever21 is my favorite store.
I want to get married and have kids after I graduate college WITH Christopher Miller ^_^.
My dad doesn't answer the phone when I call him EVER.
My mom is selfish.
I haven't been to church since June 2008 and I feel HORRIBLE about it =(.
My ex, Javarus, is like in love with me....from like 10th grade...get over it bro.
I don't get along well with other females.
I don't know how to braid...at all.
I will kill someone over my boyfriend (Deadass, can't call me stupid cuz he's not just "some nigga")
I don't ride roller coasters because I think of the movie "Final Destination" ever single time I'm near a ride.
I wanna be in a scary movie just to beat up the killer.
I HATE washing dishes.
I bite my nails.
My nose gets dry on the inside when its hot and it hurts....like right now.. lol.
I'm nosey lol but aren't all black people.
Moving to Manhattan on the upper east side one day.
Ending this blog right now.

Before "Life"

This basically shows my life before I actually had responsiblities....aka...my life when I was a snobby rich bitch in Florida...HAHA! lol


Freshman in high school....blah!...I was too cool lol...Thats when I liked A&F...ew -_-


Vacationing with my cousins in Antigua 2006


Out with my sis jus becuz...we felt like it lol...she tried to steal my drink -_-


Senior Skip Day 2008 (Stole Leo's car, got caught by dad, two weeks of Saturday School lol)


Hang in dee park...(umm they was smoking tha green stuff) lol


Hang out....at Franky's house...(He def didn't tell his parents we was there lol)


Cocoa Beach again (Andrew passed out...again...,Ron Jon Surf Shop, and McDonalds)


House Parties (Drunkage.)


Summer house (Do whatever the fcuk I want.)


Summerhouse - Drunkage (hehe Vodka)


Graduation (Class of 2008 BxTCHES!...I went to Disney World after I took a nap lol)


Good Shit yo....I wish I could go back but yeah...life isn't all fun and games...BLAH!!!

Oh9 Fuck you list.

Thanks to a friend of mine (JRev), I decided to make a fuck you list for the new year.
I don't understand why people wanna "change" for the new year, thats some straight bullshit, you been sayin that since 2000. Anyways...on to the fuck you list....

Fuck my dad for being the biggest asshole in the Hall of Fame of ASSHOLES
Fuck Dutchess Community College
Fuck Poughkeepsie
Fuck everyone who doesn't like me
Fuck everyone who acts like they like me
Fuck everyone who ever "loved" me
Fuck every nigga that FUCKED UP
Fuck every person I ever cared about that did me dirty
Fuck George Bush
Fuck the Republicans
Fuck this gay ass recession...can't even git a dutch for a dollar...lol j/k
Fuck fake bxtches
Fuck every last person that hurt me
Fuck the haters
Fuck the War in Iraq
Fuck Roh Moo Hyun (President of N. Korea)
Fuck the War in Darfur
Fuck the soldiers of Uganda
Fuck the diamonds of Sierra Leone
Fuck the government
Fuck the "weapons of mass destruction"
Fuck the police
Fuck snitches
Lastly,
Fuck niggaz, bxtches, and niggaz that act like bxtches.

College: First Semester.

Who: Me
What: College
Where: Dutchess Community College
When: Fall 08 Semester
Why: Better my education
How: Study my ass off.

Okay so, excited to start my first year of college in New York and it ended up being a total DISASTER! It started off fun, going to classes meeting new people and not so new people, but after a while it just starts going downhill. I started off with a lot of new "friends" who I usually met through old friends. I met Tia, Sammy, Sable, Ann, um...wtf is her name...Olivia, and um...Dee Dee. Note: None of them are my friends now. I found out how fake females are.

Tia is a grown ass woman (21) and takes the most shit about me. Like really? High school status. She's also a myspace head also known as a person who stays on Myspace ALL DAY. Like I guess she has no life.

Sammy isn't my friend cuz she hangs with Tia, thinks she too cool for me now. Too funny cuz its the opposite, I'm too coll for her. I don't like ugly people anyways.

Sable was nice until I found out she was a smut, I wasn't afraid of saying so either, she also tried to fight me in school...like I won't kill her -_-.

Ann is too faced, she talks shit about Sable and then acts like her bestfriend a minute later. Ugh...Females.

Olivia is just an ugly bish, with the worst shape in the world. I never had a problem with her but TIA the myspace head decided to go on my myspace page and read my life and then tell Olivia I don't like her. Like if I didn't like her I would tell her.

Dee Dee is too childish she does stuff to impress others like Tia, whomp on that, who the fcuk is she? Nobody.

College is no different from high school. Bxtches will be bxtches. Surprizingly guys are more mature in my school than females. Which is hard to believe but true because the bxtch clique keeps growing and adding more members to their friends lol. Funny how they call themselves "F.A.B" I have no idea what it stands for but the first that came to mind was FAKE ASS BXTCHES. hehe ^_^