Welcome back.

I haven't blogged in idk how long....
I been on Twitter and Facebook.

Anyways, I'm still in South Carolina unfortunately and just when I thought it couldnt get any worse it does. My old college wont send my transcripts to my new college until I pay $4,500. Ridiculous I know, but my parents aren't taking this serious and I only have 3 months to pay that off. I been crying A LOT. I've never cried so much in my life. Everyday and almost all night. My boyfriend isn't any support whats so ever.

I've realized no matter how many people I tell wtf is wrong with me and whats going on I'm the one who has to deal with it and nobody else. I got in an arguement with my boyfriend today about something stupid and I hung up on him.

My WHOLE school situation is fucked up along with how my parents are going along with it and he wants to complain to me about being home and bored. This is how our convo went:

Chris: OMG!! I'm so bored -_-
Me: (aggravated) Okay chris do you have to be doing something ALL THE TIME?
Chris: No, but I'm saying I'm not doing NOTHING, just sitting here watching tv.
Me: Well I have to do that everyday...
Chris: Well I'm not you.
Me: (Hang up)

Does this nigga think I like being here. The first month I was here I cried almost everyday and I still to get upset about STILL being here.

But you know his "boredom" is way more important than whats going on in everyone else problem in the world. On top of that I don't understand why EVERYBODY except him seems to hit me up to see how I'm feeling. Even nigga I don't even talk to on a daily basis. Like shit is fuckin ridiculous. Then he wanna tell me I'm wrong for hanging up. I refuse to listen to his BS. When something REALLY fucked up happens then he can come and complain to me.

And now he wants to "talk this out" I don't have time to "talk" about shit thats not important. He says "I'm pushing him away and IDC" I'm not pushing you away I just don't wanna hear about BS. If I didn't wanna be with you I wouldn't and he keep tellin me ima keep pushing him until he leaves. Well do what you gotta do if you wanna leave because I don't feel bad for you then be the fuck out. I mean I do love him with everything but he cant be comin at me with some stupid shit and think ima be like awww poor baby. I'm not gonna feel sorry for you just like you and nobody else feels sorry for me. Plain and simple.